In my teens I was probably one of the most trusting people alive. As innocent as I was, I never expected anyone to have anything other than good intentions. After all, why would anyone want to betray someone? Or purposely cause somebody else pain? Turns out, this was probably the most naive view of the human race I could ever have had. After being thoroughly screwed over by someone who I loved and trusted with my whole heart, I started to realise that very few people can really be trusted. The truth is- it is probably a bad idea to trust ANYONE.
Trust is dangerous. Trust makes you vulnerable and it gives others power over you. If you don't expect people to be loyal, or you don't expect people to do what they say they will, then they cannot surprise you in any way when they aren't or they don't. While I realise that this is probably a negative and cynical view to possess, at least nobody can hurt me, right?
Trust is not a word that should be taken lightly. When one says 'I trust you.' it actually means that they are placing their life, their feelings into your hands. It is a huge responsibility... which is why when I know that people trust ME, I work very hard in order to make sure that I don't let them down. Unfortunately, not many people value trust as highly as I do.
I feel as though I must apologise for the negativity of this post... but a big part of my inspiration for my writing comes from analysing human flaws, pain and the interconnectedness of us all. And yes, I have trust issues. Severe trust issues. But hey, that's me! I just had to get all of that out into the open. *Phew* I feel so much better now!
Anyway, hopefully I am feeling a little bit more cheerful as the week goes on... you may be able to expect a happier post in a few days time. But, trust me, you can never really be sure *wink*
B
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